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VIDEO #1
Title: "My Antinatalism" Date: September 07 2011 Description:
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Adam Lanza: "I didn't understand this when I was younger, but I've always had
an immense hatred for culture. I consider culture to be delusional values
which humans mindlessly coerce onto eachother, spreading it no differently
than any other disease. I previously sought to eliminate my cultural values to
the greatest extent that I could. Through this I expected to gradually discover
values of an inner-self which could be reconciled with this society, so that I
could engage in activities and pursue goals which would lead to happiness."
"Eventually I got to a point where I had sufficiently freed myself from what I
called 'cultural values' when I analyzed all of the things which brought me
happiness and all the goals which I wanted to pursue, I realized that
absolutely everything about those things that appealed to me was entirely a
consequence of my cultural infection. Formerly, I had rejected some aspects
of culture while accepting other ones, and merely not calling them cultural as
if those values were somehow transcendent and fine. It was at that point that
I realized that there is no such thing as an inner self. Any sense of self is a
delusional cultural construct. I realized that cultural infections were the sole
source of any possible value beyond base values. For a while, I believed that
happiness could be attained if culture could theoretically be eradicated and
anarcho[sic]-anarcho primitivism were to take hold. Replace all instances of
technology with culture in the analytic sections of "Industrial Society and Its
Future" (Ted Kaczynski, 1995) and you basically have my mentality at the
time regarding the pernicious effects of culture."
"The problem was that I'd not been addressing what happiness is. Happiness
is merely the fulfilment of value, I recognized that if cultural values were
eliminated, the happiness which results from their fulfilment would not be
needed because happiness becomes an unnecessary and incoherent concept
when it is removed from its' concep[sic]-context. A common theme in my
quasi-Anarcho Primitivist thought at the time is that non-base values exist
only as a consequence of cultural infections, and impede on the happiness
which results from the fulfilment of feral values. As if [?] my feral self is - in
short metaphysically the real me, whose soul had been devoured by the
culturally constructed imposter of the self. But my feral self was also an
imposter. Just as I realized that I could eliminate non-base values and have no
need for the happiness which resulted from their fulfilment, I could eliminate
base-values and have no need for the happiness which resulted from their
fulfilment."
"It was not only the disease of culture that had been plagueing me all- all
along, it was the disease of life itself. I was not and I am not in some
existential crisis, I've never had the slightest problem with the obvious
nonexistence of free will, objective purposes, and all of that. I have always
been entirely psychologically capable of accepting my own subjective values
and goals, even though I know they are consummately inconsequential, and it
doesn't bother me at all."
"The problem is not that I seek meaning and cannot find it. The problem is
that I do feel immense meaning, and so does everyone else who is alive.
Meaning is an abstract interpretation of value which exists only because of
life. Just as I sought to eradicate the delusional values which culture infected
me with, the final solution is the termination of my life, to rid myself of all
value. The solution cannot be to embrace some aspect of life, as if the erosion
of delusions is the cause of this. Life is what urgently caused me to have
value, and changing my life will never do anything but create different
delusions than the ones I already have. Unfortunately as of right now I lack
the discipline to pursue my death and to rid myself of the values which delude
me, even though I recognize [that] the solution to life is death. But I do
commend others who do commit suicide. They have freed themselves from
culture, life and all value. They have freed themselves from themselves."
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VIDEO #2
Title: "Rambling vlogrant of a ruminative vagrant (Part 1/2)" Date: September 07 2011 Description:
x Transcript: Adam Lanza: "I suppose I should add a video to my channel where I'm not
reading something which I wrote before the video, and instead just ramble
about...basically whatever comes to mind, so that I seem like less of a robot.
And I...I haven't slept very recently, so I'm probably going to ramble
incoherently, but I'm...not excusing my rambling, by really saying that though
because I always ramble."
"But, anyway, I was just recently thinking about all of this 'it gets better'
nonsense, you know, with, with um, pertaining to the teenagers being bullied
into committing suicide. And, uh, the concept of bullying in general. And I've,
in my life, I don't think I've ever conventionally been bullied. I can't really
remember a single instance, but it's, it just seems so ironic, all of this
nonsense. Even though I wasn't bullied in a conventional sense, I was bullied
in the normal cultural sense, which everyone is bullied in. And when people
speak about that, 'it gets better' nonsense, they say it in the context of 'well
our children are being bullied, what can we do to create an environment in
which they can thrive?' And that seems like such a blatant contradiction to
me, because it's really demonstrating the true bullying that's going on, and
that bullying is what every child is subjected to. The imposition of cultural
values. And the only reason why they oppose...the conventional sense of
bullying is because it interferes with their cultural imposition of value.
And...it's just, children are constantly bullied in every sense of the term, when
it comes to their upbringing."
"Like, one instance I recently remembered, this...heh, this isn't I guess, a very
good representation of what I'm talking about but I remember when I was
about ten years old, and at the end of the day in elementary school we would
get into lines and go from room to room, to gather the kids for the right bus.
And I remember that, when I was in the line, we would get to a section of
portable rooms which weren't connected to the main hallway so we would
wait at that door which leads to them. And...the students, from there, would
come join the line, and I remembered that usually I would, I don't, I don't
really remember what I was doing but I would frantically signal to them as if
there were some emergency. Um, I wasn't serious, I was..I don't know what I
was doing, I was just bored I guess."
"And anyway one day I looked through the window from the door leading to
the portable classrooms, and I saw that the principal of the school was
speaking to someone over there. And I thought, 'oh well I can't goof around
when she's there', so I said out loud to the people, um, to the other students
that were at the line there with me, I said 'oh the principal is there, well, I
don't care', and by that time I just thought I was going to just, flap around, just
motion as if there were some emergency, anyway, just fooling around. And
the vice principal happened to be standing behind me, hearing me say 'oh the
principal's there, I don't care', and she said the statement 'you should care',
as if it were...something very insightful, and wise. And, even though she
misunderstood the context of what I was saying, ignoring that, just, looking at
that statement 'you SHOULD care', and that really...is a representation of,
what childhood is. It's children saying, 'I don't care, I don't want your values, I
don't want to live', and adults constantly saying 'you should care about values,
you should choose culture, you should choose life', and that's what parenting
and childhood and education and all of that is. It's just adults bullying children
into accepting their values. So how can you possibly criticize, people for
mocking the homosexuals and bullying them in some sense, when you're the
ones who're incessantly bullying children? And, in that vein, heh, man, and the
children, they grow up to do the same exact thing. And they just senselessly
propagate these cultural memes...forever. It just keeps going on, they keep
bullying eachother, and there's no point to any of it."
"And this kind of ties into an interest I have, which is...well, heh, um...basically
the way in which society treats pedophiles. And before I go any further, I
should say, I'm not a pedophile, I've never knowingly had any contact with any
pedophiles...at all. And, just strictly an academic interest in the subject, but...
it... this whole bullying theme, it's remarkable how they can say that
homosexual teenagers are being bullied, when any discrimination which
homosexuals face is infinitely more insignificant when compared to the
discrimination which pedophiles are faced aga-w- face against. Um, I mean,
first off everyone hates you, you're subject to innumerable hate [comments?]
just right off the bat, but if you're ever known to have engaged in a pedophilic
relationship with a child, you're instantly imprisoned for long periods. You're
put on a sex offender registry for the rest of your life. You are brutalized in
prison, and people actually celebrate that as if it's a good thing. And then if
you're lucky enough to escape prison with your life, you're on that sex
offenders registry or possibly castrated, you're tracked with a GPS device in
some instances, and...there are just, so many issues pedophiles face, and
everyone seems to think that it's not a problem at all, it's somehow justified
that they're treated in that manner."
"And...and, you have to develop such extensive arguments just to refute that
delusion, that somehow having sex with children is harmful to them innately.
When, I'm...I've written an essay that's already 10,000 and, I'm nowhere near
finished and it's already 10,000 words long with eight-thousand words in
notes that I have to add. It'll probably end up over 25,000 words and it's just
refuting this simple nonsense. And basically, all that it really boils down to, is
that children aren't harmed by having sex, the reason why pedophilia is
opposed is because it combines an ata-atavistic cultural opposition to sex
with the undermining of authority of adults who relegate children to the
property of status. Uh, sorry, to the status of their property. I've...typed that
sentence, or forms of it, so many times, and it's really all that it is. It's just
that you're undermining their authority to impose their cultural values on
children, and of course when you interfere with that process, people are going
to react violently. And it's...not innately harmful for children to have sex, it's..
so absurd, I've never seen a valid argument stating as such. And, um, really
that's all that culture is. It's just the imp - the reason why I'm interested in this
topic of pedophilia, is not because I have any ties to it, at all. It's because it
really represents what culture is. It's a bunch of lies that exist to propagate
itself. Infecting countless children for countless generations and
just...continuing to perp-perpetuate, heh, I promise in the future I'll make
some videos about pedophilia I'm not just gonna leave it on that note.
My...arguments are much more refined than what I've just stated, but really
it's just a bunch of nonsense."
"And...why do...people even....people seem to think that, they're doing their
children a favor, when they're imposing values on them. They're thinking 'my
values are so great that a child needs to be brought up with them', they, um,
they - they don't really realize what they're doing. And, first off I'm talking
about people who actually choose to have children, instead of the 'whoops the
condom broke guess I just raped the soul of our offspring', instead I'm talking
about those people who intend on having children and intend on giving them
a quote 'better life' than they had."
"These people experienced what they consider to be trauma when they were
children, saying 'oh my family was too poor to provide for us' or 'oh my family
somehow abused us', and because of that they think that they can do their
children a favor by changing their behavior when having their children. But,
you're not doing your children any favors, you're not, it's like they think that
you're...that somehow that process of parenting is progressing towards some
enlightenment, but it's not doing that at all, the only reason why you...would
want to do that with your children is because, not because you're being
selfless, you're being selfish. You're trying to remedy your own psychological
baggage. I mean, the children have nothing to do with it, they don't exist, they
don't, they aren't subjected to whatever you were subjected to. It's... uh, I don't
even know."
"You don't do your children a favor by raising them in any way, all that you're
doing is imposing values onro them and they're going to have to... do the
same thing to their children, to fix their baggage and all of that nonsense. You
think that you're progressing toward something, and I'm not saying that you're
not progressing, that you're somehow deviating from some progression
or...that you're going in circles. I'm not saying that at all, you're not going in
circles, you're not progressing, you're...not doing anything. There's no
movement at all, you're stuck in the zeroeth dimension and I'm stuck in the
zeroeth dimension with no movement at all because... that's the structure of
life. And that's what value demands, you're not accomplishing anything by
doing any of this, you're just trying to fulfill the values that you've been
instilled with. And if you don't have children, you don't need to fulfill any of
those values. Uh... not sure where I should go right now, I mean, what I should
talk about."
"It really irritates me how people... they seem to say that, why should it be
celebrated when a child is born? I think that you should say, um, 'I'm so sorry
for your loss' whenever you hear that someone is pregnant. And it's the same
thing with suicide, I used to feel sorry for people who committed suicide but I
think they have the right idea."
"Now I commend them, I think that people should throw celebrations when
someone commits suicide because... they're able to escape this value trap.
And... heh... I wish I were that determined, but I'm still psychologically stuck in
all of this, I probably won't be pursuing that any time soon, but I've never
heard a single good argument against suicide. (laughter) My favorite one is
'it's selfish to commit suicide!', as if it's somehow not selfish for those people
to force that person to live who has already determined that life is not worth
living, just so that they can fulfill their needs. Or rather their values, you don't
need anything. But I guess in the vein of that whole, parenting thing, you
imposing values onto your children to address your own...that's basically all
that politics is, anyway." [video ends]
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VIDEO #3
Title: "Rambling vlogrant of a ruminative vagrant (Part 2/2)" Date: September 07 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #4
Title: "Antinatalism at light speed! Date: September 14 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #5
Title: "Cults and Culture" Date: September 15 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #6
Title: "SomethingSea Response Part 1-2" Date: September 19 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #7
Title: "SomethingSea Response Part 2-2" Date: September 19 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #8
Title: "(Pointless) CulturalPhillistine The Movie Part 1/6" Date: September 19 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #9
Title: "(Pointless) CulturalPhillistine The Movie Part 2/6" Date: September 19 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #10
Title: "(Pointless) CulturalPhillistine The Movie Part 3/6"
(09/19/2011) Date: September 19 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #11
Title: "(Pointless) CulturalPhillistine The Movie Part 4/6" Date: September 19 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #12
Title: "(Pointless) CulturalPhillistine The Movie Part 5/6" Date: September 19 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #13
Title: "(Pointless) CulturalPhillistine: The Movie Part 6/6" Date: September 19 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #14
Title: "SomethingSea Response #2: A difference of perspectives?" Date: September 27 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #15
Title: "Strange Dream #1: Beyond Dreams Door Is Where Horror Lies" Date: September 20 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #16
Title: "Suffering is life-affirming-Life is suffering" Date: September 27 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #17
Title: "A few things" Date: October 14 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #18
Title: "On pedophiles and children -Part 1-8" Date: October 14 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #19
Title: "On pedophiles and children -Part 2-8" Date: October 14 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #20
Title: "On pedophiles and children -Part 3-8" Date: October 14 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #21
Title: "On pedophiles and children -Part 4-8" Date: October 14 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #22
Title: "On pedophiles and children -Part 5-8" Date: October 14 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #23
Title: "On pedophiles and children -Part 6-8" Date: October 14 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #24
Title: "On pedophiles and children -Part 7-8" Date: October 14 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #25
Title: "On pedophiles and children -Part 8-8" Date: October 14 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #26
Title: "Strange Dream #2: Which side of the door, again?" Date: October 14 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #27
Title: "Done with YouTube" Date: October 21 2011 Description:
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VIDEO #28
Title: "To the pro-culturalists 1/3" Date: January 28 2012 Description:
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VIDEO #29
Title: "To the pro-culturalists 2/3" Date: January 28 2012 Description:
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VIDEO #30
Title: "To the pro-culturalists 3/3" Date: January 28 2012 Description:
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